Raine with mom, 10 days-old
For some reason nobody remembered to “document” Raine’s first moments into this world. I guess my family and friends focused more on me (and the more practical side of childbirth) than having a camera ready for the coming baby. Besides, only dear husbands and expectant fathers usually do that. Raine and I didn’t have either.
My first mommy moment may not be documented and I only have a hospital nurse (whose first name I didn’t even get) as a witness but it is one instance that will be forever etched in my heart and mind.
I probably had the most abnormal birth delivery. Failing at 12 hours of induced labor, my Ob-Gyne decided to cut a c-section. In my drugged-asleep-state, I heard Raine cry when he was taken out of my womb. But nobody placed him on my chest like they probably do in normal birth deliveries (and in the movies!) I didn’t see my new born Raine until two days later when the hooks (iv, catheter, etc) were taken out of my body.
(Imagine my agony and excitement when everyone visiting my hospital room was describing this beautiful baby boy in the nursery room that came out of me.)
Raine, 10 days-old
First second I was off the hooks, I asked to be wheeled to the nursery to see Raine. I remember the nurse was feeding him on a bottle and his eyes were closed. The moment I entered the room, his eyes suddenly opened and looked directly unto mine as if he knew me already. Those round dark eyes never left mine as I held him in my arms for the first time. Emotions swelled inside me and I cried a river. It was then that I first realized that I am finally a mother and that my life will be forever changed…and it has.