What happens when a little boy has no father’s shoes to wear?
This is what happens…
He he. Literally at least. I definitely wouldn’t want Raine to follow in his father’s footsteps. Not a chance!
Speaking of Raine’s (absentee) father…
I don’t think he will ever understand that I’ve moved on and that anything coming from him is not needed and necessarily welcome. Whatever it is that’s holding him for the occasional rings and SMSs (that usually end up in insults and exchange of bad words), I would be happier if he’ll just stop and get on with whatever kind of life he has right now.
Sure I’ve been telling him endless times and I even ended up ignoring the phone forever. But still the phone keeps vibrating.
Heck, I am not even asking for child support! Whoever told him that I am asking for one? Be it his mother or his conscience, well you can all rest in peace because I don’t need one.
Mayabang as it may sound but I was able to provide for my son in the last four years, I can still do that in the next fourty years.
Mayabang na kung mayabang. But I am confident of what I am capable of doing.
And THIS is exactly my kind of attitude that Raine’s father couldn’t handle and the fact that I moved away and wanted to be left alone with my and Raine’s life.
To much for his ego? Maybe. I am a strong, independent woman (pero iyakin like a pawikan). Then why would I pretend to be somebody else?
Tell me honestly, do those qualities make me a bad person? (his excuse for not choosing me!)
Well I guess it doesn’t even matter now…for i honestly believe that he did me a BIG favor for not choosing me. 
My goodness! I never ever meant to spite or insult, but that’s exactly what happens whenever I open my mouth in response to the bitter words thrown at me. (He to this day still can’t help but throw insults at me, i just throw back. But I know that that’s not even a good excuse.)
I mean I am just telling the truth, I am in a BETTER capacity (financially and emotionally) to raise Raine. And I mean that, legally too.
The truth hurts, big time. He he.
So what’s the big fuss coming from his side? I DIDN’T ASK FOR MONEY. What came a long time ago just came voluntarily. I DIDN’T ASK for it. But who am I to refuse God’s grace, however meager?
Actually, I do not need this kind of aggravation. I am just so disappointed that after all these years, after all I’ve said and done, the message I’ve tried and been trying to send hasn’t penetrated his thick skull.
Whoever in his camp is reading this, please, please, please…pound some sense into that *sshole’s head, would you? And make it a bit harder to make a crack! :-D
We are happy, better leave us alone…especially if you are bringing bad spirits with you.
Having said that…
Though I am pretty sure (knock on wood…) that raine will not turn into a screaming transvestite. However, I’d prefer he be one than turn up like the kind that his father is. 
August 23rd, 2006 at 10:57 am
I think, if I’m correctly interpreting this, that he’s insisting you’re asking money from him coz he wants to feel needed. As a guy, lemme tell you a lot of our self-worth can stem from feeling needed.
Ergo, since it’s apparent you don’t need him anymore, he’s trying to create a situation where you do. He’s just lashing out coz he doesn’t like the fact he’s become useless.
Something like that.
August 23rd, 2006 at 11:06 am
Rico, thanks for the insightful comments. you are right on all points.
hayy..men and their egos! (no offense to you) that’s what he gets for not being there at those times that he was needed.
August 23rd, 2006 at 4:05 pm
eh di ba may family na syang iba? why not devote na lang kaya his attention there, noh!
hmmm… baka naman magpapasuporta sa yo?!? bwahahahahha!!!!!
August 24th, 2006 at 8:59 am
exactly my point ruth, why not just focus his time and effort in the family that he chose. at least ma-vindicate man lang niya sarili niya.
magpa-pa-suporta sa akin? bwahahaha!!! he lost the chance a long time ago. bwahahaha ulit!!! ;-P
August 24th, 2006 at 4:56 pm
haha, grabe tawa ako sa first line, lalo na sa pix ni raine!! ahay basta ako glo, matagal na syang wala sa bokalorayo ko. the mere thought ng lahat ng sinabi at ginawa sa inyo, aaarrrrhhh gusto kong pumatay….ng bangaw… sa totoo lang ha ilang beses ka na nagsalita ng mga ganito dito sa blog mo, wala pa rin nangyayari. sayang lang yung space, di sya worth it! labs you both
August 25th, 2006 at 10:46 am
ha ha ha!!! thanks ging. this was supposed to be a cute entry. he he.
August 30th, 2006 at 9:28 pm
hi, glo. atta girl!
hindi bagay kay raine ang maging transvestite! am glad you are living a happy and independent life. yun naman ang importante, with or without a man beside.