I keep telling myself I need a break. Not a break from the work that I do, but more of a break from motherhood in general. I badly need a little bit of me-time I guess. Hopefully to think clearly about stuff and life in general. Maybe even just to pray. He he.

The only problem is that, it isn’t easy to get away. It’s hard enough to plan, save and prepare and the moment I get a single second of me-time, I miss my son. I just couldn’t shake him out of my system, even if there are times I really wanna shake him out even for just awhile!

The worse thing is that, I will end up regretting that I did not bring him along. My life just isn’t the same anymore, motherhood happened and this isn’t like I can file a L. O. A anytime I feel that it has gotten too much. All mothers have too much on their plate. All parents for that matter! They all deal with it somehow. ;-) And they survive!

Before I had my son, I wasn’t just looking for a discount furniture, I wanted the whole house. Including a dog (or a cat maybe) and the swinging chair on the porch. You know, the whole enchelada. That, and a garden of roses out front. ;-)

I still want that though, even if it is just an empty floor where my son can scatter all his toy cars, a bed wide enough for us to sleep on and a small table where we can both eat and work on, whichever need arises. No frills. The roses I can always buy from the nearest florist anyway! Ha ha ha.

However, I would like a sitter from time to time. I still want to work on getting those me-times every now and then. I’ll squeeze them in somehow. ;-)