The last time I window-shopped for baby cribs, I was alone. Looking back now, I cannot even remember what I was feeling or looking for in a crib back then. I know it should have been a sturdy one that could go down the generation or at least be used by the siblings that would come after the first baby.
But I really had no time then to think along those lines, I was just thinking what my budget can afford. So I ended up buying a small “disposable” one.
I haven’t seen this photo in a long while, Raine is probably 2 months old here.
Really feels like a long time ago! If I don’t have this big boy sleeping soundly in our bed while I type this…I could pretend that year 2002 didn’t happen at all, because I don’t feel it anymore — yes, including the few bad years after that.
Raine just made the rough ride worth it. Raine always had the best times, he still is having it. While I am having better days — a lot better days.
I promised myself long ago, I am never going to shop for baby stuff alone, ever. It might sound too much to ask, but I have always believed I deserve to have somebody who’s gonna stay the night, change diapers and feed the baby while I sleep. 
He he.
Hmmm…now I can hear my biological clock ticking OUT LOUD! But it really doesn’t matter anymore. Though I would love to have another boy or a little girl someday….that clock can tick away all it wants. I just don’t care anymore…because I already have Raine! 