The Journey. It’s Mine. [My personal take on love, life, parenting and blogging.]

…1 month and counting…

You’ve got to give a little, take a little
And let your poor heart break a little
That’s the story of,
That’s the glory of love

You’ve got to laugh a little, cry a little
Until the clouds roll by a little
That’s the story of,
That’s the glory of love

As long as there’s the two of us
We’ve got the world and all its charms
And when the world is through with us
We’ve got each other’s arms

You’ve got to win a little, lose a little
Yes, and always have the blues a little
That’s the story of,
That’s the glory of love

That’s the story of,
That’s the glory of love

I tricked A into taking photos in front of his laptop.

Who knows how long I’ve loved you
You know I love you still
Will I wait a lonely lifetime
If you want me to, I will.

For if I ever saw you
I didn’t catch your name
But it never really mattered
I will always feel the same.

Love you forever and forever
Love you with all my heart
Love you whenever we’re together
Love you when we’re apart.

And when at last I find you
Your song will fill the air
Sing it loud so I can hear you
Make it easy to be near you
For the things you do endear you to me
Oh, you know, I will
I will.

 A finally meets the real daragang magayon.

It has been exactly 2 weeks since A landed in bicolandia. Two weeks that has been really crazy and hectic. But the happy kind of crazy you see.

Major adjustments were involved of course. In fact, we are still adjusting. Even if A’s stay isn’t permanent, I sure can get use to him being around. He’s such a homebody and has been helping me with the house chores and with bringing Raine to school. He has practically turned our messy apartment upside down to make some semblance of cleanliness and order to it.

(Don’t forget too that he is an everything-about-computers expert and I love the fact that I can just turn to him these days to fix any of my computer woes. This time we need not turn to YM and do the fix ‘remotely’. Also, I got my eeePC back! All fixed and upgraded and running on Windows XP. At the moment, we have 4 computer devices in the house…networked and online. Then, I just got a free HP 3-in-1 printer from Smart Bro. Just how good can life still get??)

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Once, I wrote about being too tired on a daily basis that Raine is seeking my attention all the time. 200%. Back then I was longing for the ‘perfect picture’ in my head that should have allowed me to take heart photos.

Literally these days, short for a digicam, I only have a camera phone that can’t even hook to my PC. Moments ago, I took a the very first heart photo of the 2 men in my life right now that’s closest to my heart more than anything else.

The scene: Mommy (me!) is washing the used glasses and mugs on the sink. There were 4 in total. Gosh, there’s just the 3 of us right now.

The guys (Raine and A) are on the floor…fixing the messy cables and wires under my computer table. (He he, guys’ job right?)

Suddenly, A said: OMG! Roaches on the wall! You two! (referring to me and Raine)..OUT! Lemme handle this. So I retreated to the kitchen. Raine stayed behind, he said: I wanna help!

A: Okay, Raine..we have to think. (At this moment the cockroach already escaped.) This is a job for real men.#

R: Okaayy…ano gagawin ko?

A: So…since we don’t want him (the cockroach!) there..you stay there and watch for him. While I keep my eye on him from this other end.

R: Okay.

Then..there was a commotion and a lot of talking. In English! Demmit man, this guy’s really stinky. And things like that.

FINALLY…a sounding WAPAKKKKKK!

‘We got him dude…’

Then I heard Raine say: Yeah man…we’re good!

;)

HAHAHA. Ilang heart photos na ba yan? I can really really get used to this…he he.

DC…

Detroit

Nagoya

Manila

Legaspi

… Sorsogon!

personal issues…technical issues…

Going on at the same time…

Man, this is just crazy!

Anyways…I’m still in transit. Will be home soon to pick up Raine later today…

Wow! I can’t believe August is here. This month is gonna be exciting for me. Sort of a culmination of another chapter in my life.

Currently I am on the anxious nervous-anxious excited mode. So…this is how it feels! You know, counting the hours to the start of the rest of your life. You can’t wait…but you want to slow the turning of the hours a little bit. So you don’t hurry. Don’t forget a thing.

I guess it’s like having Acid cigars. You don’t want to drag it because you don’t want to get burned. But your get burned anyways…;)

Time just really flies…first it was 12. Now it’s just one sleep away! Where did those 12 days go???

2.5 years in the making…

12 days to go.

I can’t wait.

This is going to be the longest 12 days in the whole world!

Read the book countless times, now it’s a movie.

I hope I get to watch this.

One of my favorite duets of all time…

Hope you enjoy it…;)

Always, I have loved what The Serenity Prayer says:

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change,
the courage to change the things I can
and the wisdom to know the difference.

In all of life’s hullaballoos, if you can do all that…then you are off to a really, really peaceful life.

That way…there’s no need for pulse oximeters.

Fathers’ Day is special to me too. I’ve been a single parent and for years some friends of mine greet me on Fathers’ Day as well.

One advantage of being a single mom I guess, you get to be honored not just on Mothers’ Day but on Fathers’ Day too.I have a lot to say to Raine on this special day, but I’ll leave it for now and just include it in the LTR series one of these days.

Meanwhile.. I’ll just express some of my thoughts in a song.

Corny I know (Raine will probably say ewwwww! when he gets to read this!), but what the heck?! It’s my life… di ba?

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My Dearest Raine,

Last night I was particularly very happy that you went to bed on your own. When I checked a few minutes later, you were sound asleep. You weren’t even stirring that I realized you must be dead-tired considering the first week of school. After 3 months of oversleeping, you are forced to wake up at 6 am again.

You know it really stresses me a lot when you can’t sleep without me beside you.There are times I’m still working and you keep nagging me to go to bed. I know I should give in to your right away… but there are times my muse is on it’s excited state that I can’t be disturbed. I’m sorry to say that your nagging disrupts my train of thoughts and it becomes too difficult to catch it back.

You see… it is just on Friday nights that I can have the TV to myself and for once watch something that I really want to watch. With some peace and quiet. That helps me sleep. Last night I finally went to bed at 12 midnight, you still weren’t stirring. Then the rain started to pour heavily — a huge blessing after months of dry spell. Besides, it got a lot cooler…making sleep more comfortable for the both of us. (more…)

Yesterday, I had the longest day ever! It was really crazy… Because I slept early the other night while putting Raine to sleep, I was wide awake really early the following morning - at 3 am! So I decided to go ahead with my online stuff, thinking that I’ll be able to accomplish way much before it’s time to prepare Raine for school at 6 am.

So when 6 am came, I took care of Raine, helped him prepare, brought him to school and I got back excited to get back to writing. However, less than an hour into it…I ended up voice-and-video chatting with a long-lost friend of mine. Before I knew it, it was already time to get ready for Raine’s lunch break.

After lunch, my brother was buzzing my computer when I got back here. He wanted to chat too. So we did. For more than 2 hours! I told you…yesterday was indeed chika day! He he. Anyways, I was able to insert some more blog entries after chatting with my brother. Then it was again time to pick up Raine at school by 4 pm. When we went home together, I still had to take care of Raine first for various things. After which, I cooked/prepared dinner while hand-washing the laundry. Talk about multi-tasking, right?

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So Raine started a new school year today (like the rest of the Philippines). Thankfully without fuss and with an excited positive outlook. First days in school are truly special so I personally took him to school this morning and lingered awhile to chat with the other parents whom I haven’t seen in the last 3 months.

In typical Filipino fashion, I got various comments like tumaba, bagay sayo straight hair mo and blooming ka today. He he he. Outside the classroom door was the printed rooster of students in the said section. Many parents were delighted that the obnoxious kid in class was nowhere to be found on the list. (Raine are I were over the moon! Yes! It was more like malignant Mesothelioma that went into remission. In short, nabunutan talaga kami ng malaking tinik na mag-ina!).

Later on we found out that the said kid transfered to another school. The reason? Who cares! Ha ha ha.

Anyways…there was supposed to be an 8-hour brownout in the city today. For some miracle unknown to humans, the brownout didn’t happen. I particularly got up at 4 am so I can get online early in the day to take care of some stuff already before the said brownout happens. It’s past 2 pm and I’m still online. (Less than 2 hours na lang, 12 hours na akong online!)  ;)

Life is good!

I have a confession to make: In my teens, I was a fan of the Karate Kid movies. I watched all three including that ‘new karate kid” with Hilary Swank.So it’s like a birthday gift to me when the new Karate Kid remake premiered Monday night in L.A.

It is starring Will and Jada Smith’s son Jaden and of course my favorite in the whole world…Jackie Chan! What could I ask more? It’s like everything you’ve ever wanted in one plate. Ha ha! Except that it’s a feast for your eyes, not your stomach.

Okay.. so Ralph Macchio has mixed feelings on the movie’s remake…is he really 48 years old now?! He even looks different!

Told you I stopped counting at 25!Age is just a number you see…it is what’s in your heart and what you have become that really matters in aging or old age whichever way you want to look at it.Remember that aging resulted to the best wines in the world…

In my teens, I just worried about the best acne medicine. Tomorrow I’ll be worried whether my money is enough for Raine’s back-to-school shopping. It is still Raine’s even on my special day. Oh well…I’ll just insert a few items of my own.

Cheers! I wanna have 37 more years and still more years to come…

In 9 days, I will be turning 37.

Age is just numbers you see…as I stopped counting at 25. I’m thinking of something special to get myself. Maybe a nice lingerie? It could be a nice change to my usual sleeping clothes of shirts and shorts.

It’s just that I have no use of something like that at the moment. It is still just Raine occupying the left side of my bed. He he.

Well anyways, it would be nice to be ready just in case A made it home later this year…

According to my brother, this baby looks like me when I was a baby. Ang smile nya? Bungisngis just like me.

Hayyy…sarap pala ng may baby girl.

To the one who found me…this one’s for you:

You by the light
Is the greatest find
In a world full of wrong
You’re the thing that’s right

Finally made it through the lonely
To the other side

Chorus:
You said it again
My heart’s in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I’m at the edge of my emotions
Watchin’ the shadows burnin’ in the dark

And I-I-I’m in love (I’m in love)
And I-I-I’m terrified
For the first time
And the last time
In my only life, life

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This is the second week that I’ve been coming back to the city to work since Raine went on vacation. While I enjoy not getting up really early in the mornings, I envy the rest of the people around me. Everyone seems to be on vacation mode, especially today because of the holy week.

Everyone is going somewhere. The beach has gotten really crowded. Typical at this time of year.

When I was still residing in LB, holy week is the only holiday in the year that I don’t go home. Just because I hate the crowd in buses and bus terminals. In those days, passengers are getting inside bus windows just to get a seat. It was just horrible. Stressful too!

Then makakuha ka pa ng kaaway sa bus. I remember flagging down a 50ish guy smoking inside an air-conditioned bus. The only reason I took the bicol-bound aircon buses then was to avoid the guys smoking inside the ordinary bus. Otherwise, I’ll be fine without the aircon.

Then later on, nauso na ang seat reservation sa bicol-bound buses.

Raine and I just got back from a another long weekend. No classes last Friday in Raine’s school as it was the high school students’ turn for the DAT (Division Achievement Test). We went home Thursday early evening and just got back in the city this afternoon. Done cleaning, grocery shopping and ironing Raine’s uniforms. Thankfully I didn’t have to look for joint pain relief.

It was another weekend of pigging out and oversleeping in the mornings. The weather was beach-ready and I was raring to hit the beach. But everyone was just so KJ that my plan didn’t pull through.  Anyways….better luck next time. There will be a lot of next times anyway.

Today is the last day of February and marks what remains of the school year — 3 weeks na lang. Then it’s summer time. He he he.